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Wednesdays are hard.

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I don't know how this post is going to end up.

Let's get started.

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I went on a date on Saturday.

It was a really good date.

Its been a while since I've been on a proper date.

Life is confusing

but isn't it always?

Yeah.

Love is confusing.

Liking people is confusing.

I don't want this to be a lovey dovey post though

so moving right along.

I finally started reading

The Fault in Our Stars.

I already love it.

Its already making me emotional.

/sigh

Things are complicated.

I'm worried about my nephew,

he isn't doing too well.

He's just a little guy.

He doesn't deserve this.

My family doesn't deserve this.

I understand that God has His plan.

I respect that.

But if He takes one more member of my family prematurely...

well I'm just not sure how I'm going to handle it.

I'm already not handling it well.

life is complicated.

I love the gospel

I'm so grateful and lucky to have it in my life.

I don't know what I'd do without it.

But,

I'm not perfect.

And I don't always understand why things happen.

I don't understand why I was bullied in school.

I don't understand why my uncle had to pass away.

I don't understand the majority of the bad things that have happened in my life have had to happen.

And this is no exception.

I don't understand it.

And honestly, it makes me angry.

It makes me so upset to think that there might be one more loss that my family has to suffer through.

I don't think its fair.

And I know life isn't fair.

And I know that we have trials for a reason.

And I know God has His plan.

I know all of that.

I believe all of that to be true.

And I'm grateful for that knowledge.

But it doesn't change that fact that right now,

I'm just kind of angry.

And I'd like that anger to go away.

I'd like to be given the ability to understand that this needs to happen even if I don't understand why it needs to happen...

Does that make sense?

I hope so.

Okay, so now that I've spilled my inner most thoughts to you...

I'm gonna go.

I love you all.

If you read this, 

and you happen to not mind,

if you would keep my family

specifically my sister and her family

in your prayers

I'd be forever appreciative.

99 things no one cares about *TAG*

La la la la la
la
lalalala
lala
can you guess what song that is?

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Hi! Its another Tag Tuesday!
Today I'm dong the 100 things that no on cares about tag!
Funny story
there are only 99 questions on this tag
clearly counting is something no one cares about.
Math?
Phhhhssssss.

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1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
I don't have closet doors! I have curtains and they are CLOSED and it is freakin' TERRIFYING regardless!

2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
I don't personally, but the person I'm staying with does. So yes?

3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
Tucked in?

4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
No. What would one do with a street sign?

5:Do you like to use post-it notes?
Why yes, I do.

6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
No. I just don't cut out coupons.

7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
Um...bees I think.

8:Do you have freckles?
I sure do!

9:Do you always smile for pictures?
I'm not sure...

10:What is your biggest pet peeve?
Pigeon toes! Ugh! It infuriates me!

11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
Hahah ALL the time.

12:Have you ever peed in the woods?
No?

13:What about pooped in the woods?
oh gosh. No.

14:Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?
Hahah I'm never sitting still. I'm always dancing.

15:Do you chew your pens and pencils?
I don't chew them. But I do hold them between my teeth sometimes? But I don't bite them exactly? Its very complicated.

16:How many people have you slept with this week?
Uh...none? Like ever?

17:What size is your bed?
Queen?

18:What is your Song of the week?
Through The Dark.

19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
YEAH

20:Do you still watch cartoons?
Sometimes?

21:Whats your least favorite movie?
Probably something like..March of the Penguins or something?

22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
A place where no one would find it?

23:What do you drink with dinner?
Water..K, I'm lying. Definitely Dr. Pepper.

24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
I wouldn't eat a chicken nugget.

25:What is your favorite food?
Salmon!

26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
Soul Surfer, Stick it, Prince of Egypt, probably a few others. Emma? Help?

27:Last person you kissed/kissed you?
Moving swiftly along.

28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
Nope.

29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
No no no.

30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
A missionary! I don't remember exactly when...but it was a missionary!

31:Can you change the oil on a car?
I could at one point! ...but I don't drive so I've clearly forgotten.

32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
Nope.

33:Ever ran out of gas?
Nah.

34:Favorite kind of sandwich?
Veggie on wheat!

35:Best thing to eat for breakfast?
Food. /nods

36:What is your usual bedtime?
Bedtime?

37:Are you lazy?
Probably.

38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
So many things! Belle was my favourite.

39:What is your Chinese astrological sign?
I think I'm a boar.

40:How many languages can you speak?
I can barely speak English hahah

41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
I don't

42:Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
Uh..Legos, duh.

43:Are you stubborn?
Sure am.

44:Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
I don't have an opinion on this.

45:Ever watch soap operas?
I don't think so.

46:Are you afraid of heights?
YES.

47:Do you sing in the car?
Yup.

48:Do you sing in the shower?
e'er day, all day.

49:Do you dance in the car?
hahah yes...

50:Ever used a gun?
No, someone teach me.

51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
Sometime when it was warmer.

52:Do you think musicals are cheesy?
Not all of them.

53:Is Christmas stressful?
No, its beautiful.

54:Ever eat a pierogi?
no?

55:Favorite type of fruit pie?
Is a pumpkin a fruit?

56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
An author. since like...fourth grade.

57:Do you believe in ghosts?
Unfortunately, yes. 

58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
Yup.

59:Take a vitamin daily?
{laughs nervously} No...

60:Wear slippers?
Yes.

61:Wear a bath robe?
Also, yes.

62:What do you wear to bed?
Like...a jumper and shorts. Or mens sweats.

63:First concert?
I've never been to a proper concert,

64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Target.

65:Nike or Adidas?
Yes.

66:Cheetos Or Fritos?
Cheetos.

67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Also, yes.

68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?.
No. I have not

69:Ever take dance lessons?
Hahah NOOOOOooooooOO never.
Only like everyday of my life for the past six years.

70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
I wanna be a writer!

71:Can you curl your tongue?
Like how? Because yes, but not all the ways...

72:Ever won a spelling bee?
No.

73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
Probably.

74:Own any record albums?
No, I wish.

75:Own a record player?
Also no.

76:Regularly burn incense?
No..

77:Ever been in love?
Yes? Possibly?

78:Who would you like to see in concert?
One Direction. Fun. Coldplay. The Script. Mumford and Sons. The Lumineers. The 1975....so on and so forth.

79:What was the last concert you saw?

80:Hot tea or cold tea?
ALL of the TEA

81:Tea or coffee?
Tea

82:Sugar or snickerdoodles?
No cookies.

83:Can you swim well?
Yeah I can!

84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
What does that even mean?

85:Are you patient?
Hahah I don't know? Maybe?

86:DJ or band, at a wedding?
Um...all of it.

87:Ever won a contest?
I don't think so?

88:Ever have plastic surgery?
No.

89:Which are better black or green olives?
Olives.

90:Can you knit or crochet?
I've been taught how to crochet...

91:Best room for a fireplace?
All of the rooms?

92:Do you want to get married?
I'd love to get married, I think that would be wonderful.

93:If married, how long have you been married?

94:Who was your HS crush?
If I said their name it wouldn't even matter because y'all would have NO idea who they were...

95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
No

96:Do you have kids?
No.

97:Do you want kids?
I'd love kids.

98:Whats your favorite color?
Blue.

99:Do you miss anyone right now?
I do. I really, really do.

More Favourites?

I've already started to tag for next Tuesday

because it's

freaking

HUGE!

~

Its Friday and I'm not sure if I want to do another favourites post.

Maybe I'll do two a month?

So I don't know what I'm gonna do for you today!

I guess we'll figure that out!

hahahahahah

hahahahah

hahahah

hahah

hah

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Um...

I saw a man last night who was just too pretty to be a man.

That was pretty great.

I also got food.

Food is ALWAYS one of my favourite things.

Speaking of food:

I'm attempting to blog and make food at the same time.

That is NOT one of my favourite things.

I'm trying to decide if its still too early to do a Christmas post.

Christmas is a favourite thing.

I like that video I posted earlier.

Its deffs full of yucky words.

But like those boys are SO funny.

Hahah "Sports"

I also am liking boys again.
Not that I ever stopped..?
Well, I was just kind of taking a break from men.
But, now I am pretty happy with my love life again.
But, as usual, I will not be going into details.
#SorryNot.

I don't even know what I'm trying to say here.
Oh I might actually start making videos again.
So check out my YouTube.
That can be a favourite.
k
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Who Would We F*ck? (ft. Tyler Oakley)

Forgive the language but this is TOO funny.

What am I even trying to say?

Wednesdays are whatever.

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HI its Thursday and I have nothing to talk to you about.

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I saw that guy on Tuesday.

He's very nice.

I quite liked him.

He basically just makes me smile everyday.

But its possible that he'll read this so I'm not going to elaborate.

moving swiftly along

My sister had a baby last week.

I got to officially meet him today.

he's so teeny tiny

he's just itty bitty

he's darling

and I just already love him to bits.

I have had so many dance performances over the course of this month that I'm

dreaming

about

dance

performances.

I also had a dream where my teeth started breaking.

I woke up crying

because like

teeth are just so important to me.

Like its weird.

but I woke up crying and then I was very frustrated for the rest of the day.

I'm still obsessed with Harry Stiles One Direction.

I listened to them while I was drawing Harry Styles again.

I'm beginning to realise that I probably have a problem.

But its been confirmed that the only cure of the infection is to kiss Harry.

I'll take one for the team guys.

I

will

take

one

for

the

team.

I honestly don't think that there is anything else worth mentioning today.

if I thin of something later I'll just..

not do anything

I'll probably just not do anything.

Great.

I love you.

K

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Hahah do those links even work??
hahahah

YouTube Rewind: What Does 2013 Say?

This Or That *TAG*

I'm going to run out of tags eventually aren't I.

Hmmm...

oh well.

~

Its Tuesday again. So that's great.

Today we're going to do the This or That tag.

Because I couldn't find another one that I could do on short notice.

Planning ahead?

Psssshhhh.

Who does that?

Psssshhhh.

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MAKEUP

Blush or Bronzer?

...I really like both, but I wear blush more.

Lipgloss or lipstick?

Lipstick, it lasts longer.

Eyeliner or Mascara?

Both. Always wear both.

Foundation or Concealer?

Concealer.

Neutral or Colour eyeshadow?

Um...purple? But it looks neutral.

Pressed or Loose eyeshadow?

Pressed.

Brushes or Sponges?

Brushes.

NAILS

OPI or China Glaze?

China Glaze.

Long or short?

Short.

Acrylic or Natural?

Natural.

Brights or Darks?

Darks.

Flower or No Flower?

No flower.

BODY

Perfume or Body Splash?

Body Splash.

Lotion or Body Butter?

Body butter.

Body wash or Soap?

Body wash.

Lush or other body product.

Bath and Body Works.

FASHION

Jeans or Sweatpants?

I like both depends on my mood.

Long or Short sleeved?

Both depends on the weather.

Dresses or skirts?

Dresses.

Stripes or Plaid?

I own more stripes.

Flip Flops or Sandals?

Sandals.

Scarves or Hats?

I own more scarves.

Studs or dangly earrings?

Studs.

Necklaces or Bracelets?

Necklaces, I've never found a bracelet that fits.

Heels or Flats?

I LOVE both.

Jacket or Hoodie?

Jacket.

Forever 21 or Charlotte Russe

X21.

Abercombie or Hollister

Hollister.

HAIR

Curly or Straight.

Curly?

Bun or Ponytail?

Bun.

Bobby pins or Butterfly clips?

Bobby Pins.

Hairspray or Gel?

Hairspray.

Light or Dark?

Dark.

Side swept or Full bangs?

Side swept.

Up or Down?

Down.

RANDOM

Rain or Shine?

Shine.

Summer or Winter?

Summer.

Fall or Spring?

Fall.

Chocolate or Vanilla?

Vanilla.

East Coast or West Coast?

West Coast.

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Okay.

That's all.

These were boring.

BORing.

Whatever.

I'll try and think of something for tomorrow.

But for now

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Weekly FAVOURITES

Hahahahahah

hahah

hah

Shhh

Its still Friday!

~

Its eleven thirty on a Friday!

SO I'm giving you my favourites.

Because

I

can.

Let's get started.

~

These are in no particular order!

And I'm sure I'm forgetting a bunch of stuff because I'm rushing!

1. Midnight Memories!

Its all I've been listening to since it came out!

2. Maybeline dream lumi touch highlighting concealer!

Because I've started using it again and it works!

3. Caramel steamers!

Because they're delicious!

4. French dip sandwiches!

Also delicious!

5. FROZEN!!

Because its PERFECTION!!

6. My friend MEGAN!

Because its her birthday!

7. Isa!

because we're both insane

because she introduced me to one direction

because we like to eat food together

BECAUSE SHE'S THE ONLY ONE WHO UNDERSTANDS ME!

8. Charming young men!

Because Always.

9. Harry Styles.

Because Harry Styles.

10. Peppermint flavoured EVERYTHING.

because CHRISTMAS!

11. Daily Grace.

Because she gets me through the week.

12. Tumblr

because its an addiction.

13. Good literature

because duh.

14. Heated car seats.

Because obviously.

15. MY NEW NEPHEW!

Because BABIES!!

16. My family.

Because they're all my favourites.

17. Rock climbing.

Because I DID IT!

18. Christmas songs.

Because.

19. winter candy apple body spray.

Because I like it more this year than last.

20. Gold glitter!

Because festive nails!!

21. EOS lip balm

Because it'll be in every favourites.

UNfavourite.

Wearing sweet mint EOS lip balm in the out of doors while its cold and snowing.

BECAUSE IT MAKES IT ALL WORSE!

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K there you go!

I'll try to be more organised!

EXCEPT I STILL HAVE NO IDEAS FOR WEDNESDAYS!

Whatever.

K

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Let's give you an update.

I still don't know what to do on Wednesdays.

~

I'm thinking of having Thoughtful Thursdays.

And just like ramble.

Because that isn't what I do anyway.

Hmmmm

~

Alright hi.

So I feel like I should share some of the recent ongoing events of the life of me.

First off

...I haven't decided what school I want to go to.

Its incredibly frustrating.

Also, due to a recent event I may not want to move away anytime soon...

I think number 33 on my 55 facts might have been a bit premature...

and it honestly pains me to say that.

But you see there's this person,

and I'm WAY interested in them.

and they're just so charming and I'd really like to get to know them better

and I could see something happening between us...?
perhaps?
I don't know.

and that's kind of scary..

but also quite exciting..

And I just would honestly like for something to happen.

Maybe then I could stop being terrified of my exes parents.

I think it would be nice to have that type of a connection to someone again.

So could there be a new man in my life?

Possibly.
probably not.

I'm not sure.

That'd be nice.

I'm not sure I should publish this...

But y'know what??

This is MY blog.

I should be able to write what I want.

Right?

[laughs nervously]

It's complicated.

It's REALLY complicated.

This person is charming, and sweet, and adorable, and funny, and they make me happy.

and they think I'm pretty

But I HIGHLY doubt they're interested in being anything more than friends.

Honestly I hate dating.

It's stupid,

I hate it,

I want NOTHING to do with it.

I just want someone to be happy with

and right now

this person makes me really happy...

You know,

I was going to write more on this

but I lost my train of thought.

So....

We'll continue this next week?

Cool

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Common White Girl *TAG*

Yes I DID take a break form blogging over the holiday.

Yes I DID also not blog yesterday.

Yes you CAN find out why when I do a weekly update.

Judge me

I have reasons

~

Its barely still Tuesday.

But I figured I should probably have some sort of post here.

So without further ado...

Let's get started shall we?

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1. Favourite Starbucks drink?

Well, I don't drink coffee. So i'm a bit useless at this question. But I love Caramel Steamers.

2. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?

Well, truthfully, it depends on the day. and whether or not I'm doing my hair but anywhere from 15-45 minutes.

3. How many "selfies" do you take on a daily basis?

does snapchat count? No? okay. Maybe a couple per week.

4. Do you ever say LOL or OMG out loud?

No.

5. Do you wear the same clothing item more than once?

Yes?

6. How many tweets do you have?

139 and 90% of them are Instagram pics.

7. Instagram, Twitter, or Tumblr.

Tumblr.

8. Who are your favourite YouTubers?

Oh gosh, there are SO many...too many.

9. How often do you do your nails?

Like, whenever I find the energy and patience.

10. What do you spend most of your time doing?

In all honesty I probably spend it on the internet, but reading is a close second.

11. Are you a shopaholic?

No, I truthfully hate shopping. I like clothes, just not the process of acquiring them.

12. How many times have you watched Mean Girls?

Too many.

13. Do you own a lot of clothes?

Yeah, you could say that.

14. Do you take a picture of your food before eating it?

Nope.

15. Do you wear makeup e'eryday?

No. It depends on what I'm doing that day.

16. How do you most often style your hair?

Curls, baby, because I can.

17. Do you always look presentable?

Hahahahahahahahahah

18. Are you racist?

Is this really a part of this tag?

also, no, I am not.

19. How many Instagram pics and followers do you have?

123 and 131.

20. Do you use EOS lipbalm?

Yes, yes I do.

~

There you go!

Your Tuesday post!

I'm sorry for neglecting you.

K BYEEEEEE!

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