I have a problem.

Multiple actually.

Most really aren't problems at all...

but its me.

AND everything is a problem for me.

You know,

for lack of better words.

Hah.

K

well

lets start shall we?

cool.

My first problem is my uncle

who is basically like a second father to me

passed away this week.

Honestly, I thought I would handle this differently.

I thought I would be an emotional wreck.

Crying all the time

not caring what I looked like

eating my feelings

Yeah, 

all of it.

But I have been perfectly fine.

And not because of like shock or something.

I just have come to realize that even if I don't understand it

God has his plan.

And He must have a very big need of strong priesthood holders there in heaven.

I am not trying to say that I'm not sad or upset.

I am.

I love my uncle.

I am going to miss him.

But he is happier with our heavenly father.

My second problem.

I haven't even STARTED 

getting ready for school yet.

And for me 

THIS IS A BIG DEAL.

You just don't understand.

I am like having anxiety attacks

because I am getting so stressed out.

I am usually ready for school

like a month ago.

I have twelve days 

TWELVE DAYS

to get ready for my junior year.

suck.

My third problem.

I haven't finished my online classes yet.

I am a failure.

Do I have to explain this further?

Yes?

K...

I haven't finished the online classes I'm taking.

{Because I kind of slacked off this summer...shhhhhh...}

and because of this I am just going to have a HUGE work load

 for the first few months of the year.

I do not need that.

You have to understand

I'm barely going to have time to breath this year.

Because for some reason I like overloading myself with stuff.

Who needs a social life?

Not me

Obvi

So I'm just trying to relax.

Its not the end of the world.

My fourth problem.

I have a million people living in my house.

Okay, like...seventeen.

Okay that's even a lot if you're used to a lot of people.

I'm not.

I'm used to my mom.

and occasionally my cousin.

Stressful.

That's what my life is.

And I know that its not forever.

And I know I should enjoy the time with my family.

But I just want to sleep.

All the time.

That's a lie.

But I don't like sharing my bathroom.

Gross.

And my last problem.

I am addicted to youtube.

PROBLEM

yes.

and when school starts I'm going to have withdrawals.

Wow.

This was a long post.

Be proud of me.

Goodnight.