My Room

I got new rope Lights for my room since we're changing it all around. They smell like new plastic. Case you were wondering.

More pictures to come.

Something to think about.

All I want is to be able to dream again.

To be able to leave the world around me and go into this magically fantastic place where everything is perfect. But its not and I've lost sight of my dreams

All I want is to wish again.

To see the first star of the night and wish something from my wildest fantasies. But I won't because it won't happen.

All I want is to be able to feel again.

To see something happy and be able to join in. But I can't because all I feel is pain.

All I want is to trust again.

To look into the eyes of someone close and be able to put faith in them. But I won't because they'll hurt me in the end.

All I want is to sing again.

To let my voice be heard by everyone around me. But I can't because they won't hear what I hear.

All I want is to dance again.

To express myself in a different way than words. But if I do they won't hear what I'm saying.

All I want is to smile again.

To look at someone and show them the happiness inside me. But I'd be lying.

All I want is to be happy again.

To join in with the laughter around me, to smile and not lie, to dance and have them hear, to sing and have them join me, to trust and not get hurt, feel and not be in pain, to wish and believe in magic, to dream big. But I can't because I've been broken and hurt to badly.

Have you ever thought about the lasting effects your words can have on a person? How they can eat away at them for longer than you can remember what you said? Words hurt. They've hurt me, and there was a point where the words of others made me feel small and worthless and pitiful. I was convinced everyone hated me, and I'm sure a lot of people did...It changed me, the words of these people, I went from being a happy, bubbly person with a charming personality, to a person no one wanted to be around, so someone who was always sad a person who hid behind a fake smile so that people wouldn't judge them. A person who pretended everything was okay so that they wouldn't give anyone the satisfaction of being hurt. The type of person that when they're alone all they do is cry, the type of person who cries themselves to sleep...I'm sure I am not the only one this has happened to, and I don't want it to happen to anyone else because it is miserable. Its like everyone around you is plotting against you, and your entire world is dark. I was always the type of person who looked to the future and had dream a million miles ahead of me, then all of a sudden everything is front of me was black. I never felt more alone, I hated myself, and resented everyone around me. I just couldn't understand why the people who were supposed to be my friends were hurting me so badly, I felt like some of my closest friends were holding things over my head, just out of my reach. I felt like they were thrilled to finally have something over me. Anyway, The reason I am saying all of this is because I'm sick of being miserable, and I know I'm never going to be totally okay with everything that has happened, But I don't want to ever see someone else in this position. So please people, Think about what you say before you say it, because no matter who you say it to it will always get to the person you said it about, and you never know how it will effect that person in the long-run. Words hurt my friends, so be the person to stop this, stop the pain...stop the gossip, its not worth it. And it hurts. Believe me, I know. And its a lesson worth remembering.

*all about me*

I had inspiration from my sister to do this {blog stalking is a fun hobby} just a list of strange things about me, things that maybe you do know or maybe don't, whatever, happy reading.

~I am a sophmore in highschool

~though I am one of the oldest in my group of friends, I am the shortest...by a lot.

~I love to sing

~I am OBSESSED with ABC family's pretty little liars

~I love reading

~I love writing

~I LOVE disneyland

~But I hate roller coasters...

~I love my sisters, Jessie, Shannon, Emma, Isa, and Ashley.

~I love performing, though I'm taking a break from the drama of the drama department

~I sleep with my leopard print snuggie every night.

~I love blue

~I love winnie the pooh and am very excited to see the new movie

~I have an overactive imagination {and proud of it!}

~sometimes I wish I go to Hogwarts

~if pokemon were real I would ditch school to become a pokemon trainer

~I act like a child

~I laugh at everything

~I've been kissed

~I've had multiple boyfriends

~I've thought I was in love

~I hate mornings...

~My sister Isa and I are PRO at DDR and Cooking mama.

~One summer all I did was play DDR with Isa from like nine in the morning to ten at night, zero exaggeration.

~I can't sleep unless I have my running lights and night time playlist on

~people tink I'm a lot more complicated than I actually am

~If you're trying to talk to me and I don't respond its probably because I'm day dreaming

~I'm a dork, and I'm proud of it.

Viva Las Vegas

On our way to VEGAS!!

We had lunch in Paris ;)

New york New york!!

MGM Grand

The MGM Grand is my favourite hotel on the strip I just think its beautiful.

disney land

I'm so excited for pretty little liars tomorrow, like you have no idea. But this post is not about that, this is about my upcoming trip to Disneyland, I'm even more excited for that which is saying something. I LOVE Disneyland! Sooo excited.